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Writing Prompt 2

Writing Prompt 2: Free Write

Standing on a ledge with no idea what’s below should I jump. Deep in the farthest part of my mind, a barren forest; Uncertainty casts shadows that manifest into trees; Heartache stills frigid air that settles heavily on the forest floor, where I lay my head. Among the leaves and fagot piles, grave markers beneath upturned soil, bring solace and warmth, however minute…my puffs of shivering breath come alive as demons, that envelope me in an unrelenting cold and whisper all my fears and failures; they erect themselves, familiar faces, ghosts of aspirations I tended to then carelessly discarded, hovering on the tree line…on the very border of my conscious and subconscious… [FIN].

Copyright Marie Meyers, 2018. All Rights Reserved.



30 Day Challenge #1: Yesterday & Tomorrow

30 Day Writing Challenge Prompt 1
Title: Yesterday & Tomorrow
Prompt Type: Poetry, Prose, Free Verse, Lyric
By: Marie Meyers

Yesterday & Tomorrow

Things are alright today,
but I don’t know about tomorrow
Yesterday had me feeling blue
I prayed for a better tomorrow
Today’s kind of going all right,
may I be hopeful tomorrow will be the same
Can I

Absence makes the heart grow fonder
but I guess I was the exception for you
–don’t get me wrong,
I’m fine with that, truly,
I’m even sorry for the wasted time,
not just for myself, but for you as well…
it’s not always fate,
sometimes it’s just the way life goes
It has it’s own rhythm it moves to;
things work themselves out

However, there are times when
my body sways to the beat of the music,
& I get caught up in the memories
of days before.
Swept up in my laughter
of days before,
then like a bad trip I return to reality,
& the somber feeling returns,
like a bad hangover
–things have changed from then to now,
& Lady Agony, attacks with a swiftness
& with ruthless savagery . . .

Breath rushing from my lungs,
I’m forced to my knees,
I close my eyes & bow my head,
then bring my hands together in prayer:
& I pray I’ll be alright.

Now things are alright today,
but I don’t know about tomorrow.
Yesterday had me feeling blue
so I prayed for a better tomorrow.
Today is kind of going alright,
may I be hopeful tomorrow will be the same?
Can I? Can I pray to God for better days?

-Fin. Copyright, Marie Meyers, 2018. All Rights Reserved.


“unable to turn back time”
to live the same moments a second time,
if only i could do something different;
memories taunt and haunt, like nightmares;
sleep paralysis —
i’m thrashing, helpless against the demon in my view . . . unable to escape this hurt manifesting within me . . . an open wound . . . into oblivion . . .


Also titled: The Diary of Christopher Martin
Original Publication Year: 2011
Genre: Mystery, Old Crime Stories, Ghost Stories
Summary: Diary entries tell the troubles of a man haunted by the spirit of his infatuated younger sister.

By Marie Meyers. Copyright Agatha by Marie Meyers, 2017. All Rights Reserved.

November 17th, 1902 

Ha Ha! It is done at last! Hark to the heavens! Rejoice and be merry! The witch is dead, the witch is dead! Now, my life is complete! Why—was it not only recently that I yearned for the devil to claim Agatha’s soul? And now the deed is done, dear Agatha, my dear younger sister, is dead! Passed away mysteriously in her sleep! Ha!—it is no mystery, her luck had simply run out! Indeed my friend, indeed, this is a momentous occasion! So momentous in fact, that—

ah, you think me heartless still, don’t you, my companion? But you know as well as I the witch whom she was. The young thing, a tyrant! She who grew obsessed with me—she who grew mad with me—the child who wouldn’t relent! Never once was her fondness innocent—it grew and grew and escalated to such a height that I could not reach and destroy it. You my dear companion and friend know of some occurrences that contribute to that which I mention.

The previous things I have written on your pages and for so long…but none entry prior has ever been as joyous as this! Now, let us celebrate? The night is young, as am I, and I—now—am a free man. At last!

November 21st, 1902

I cannot do a thing but contribute to you, my friend, events which present themselves peculiar to me. I shall begin with last night. The outside wind grows chillier still, as we approach the most joyous of winter months. Last night, before turning in for sleep, I had bolted my window shut, for as I had said previously, the wind grows chill, and I am not a young man who stands the cold. Thus I bolted the window, and finding it securely shut, I went to sleep.

The first strange occurrence begins roughly around two-thirty in the morning. As I said earlier—I was asleep. Now in my sleep I rest deeply, and none can penetrate. However, last night my mind and body was somewhat unsettled, and my subconscious was light. As I lay in bed, I suddenly sensed a chill near me. As I became more aroused from slumber, I felt a weight being applied to the bed as the chill became closer to me and more evident. I wished not to awake, thus I ignored all and kept my eyes closed, and hoping deep sleep would come. Then, I felt the coldest chill press into my backside and stream along my waist in a strong lock. I felt my hair being tussled, and I felt my ear being feathered by something.

Reluctantly, I opened my eyes. I glanced down at my waist. No one’s arms were around me, yet the pressure—the feeling of being held to someone stayed firm. In agitation well as resignation, I audibly exhaled a breath, and I saw my breath, a puff of smoke in the room. It was odd. I was sure I had bolted the window. I got up and went to the window, it was indeed bolted—then how was the room cold? I put my hand to the window. No imprint was left where my hand had been. That’s when I noticed a picture of Agatha on the floor. I picked it up. A picture of her, here? My room is sacred ground to me—no evil should’ve been in there. I ripped it up and threw it away. I climbed back in bed. No chill followed. My breath I could no longer see. I went to sleep and remained, undisturbed.

When I awoke this morning I passed the window, and noticed there was a hand print on the spot where my hand had been the night before. I put my hand over it, the handprint was smaller than my hand, it was not my own. It was peculiar and puzzled me throughout this day, because I was alone in my room last night.

Now tonight, the sun had set and I felt ill, so I retired to bed early. Again, I bolted the window and proceeded to bed. What awoke me was the frightful chill that gripped and caressed one particular part of me—I’d rather not say (surely than you can guess)—and I have to admit, that for a few moments, I indulged myself quite guiltily in the sensation, until I realized that the feeling was not caused by my own accord. My dear friend, I was surprised to feel such a pleasure alone, and not by my own ministrations.

So now, here am I transcribing to you, the accounts and events that have disrupted my thoughts and awoken me, before I picked you up, and opened you, to begin to transcribe my troubles, I went by the window and not surprisingly it was bolted as before I fell asleep. I ask you now, my friend—for what could be the cause of such nightly occurrences?

November 24th, 1902

Ah! Blast it all! Blast it all, I say! No more! No more! There is only so much I can take! Ah, my friend, what to do—what to do?! True and be as it may, this is only day five of these disturbing events, but I am a man who can only take so much!

This morning, when I awoke, on my nightstand was another; another picture of that tyrant Agatha. Vile! To wake up and turn to see her face smiling up at me—it’s disgraceful to say the least and considering the fact that I had not put the picture there! Is this someone’s idea of a cruel prank—is someone trying to thwart me, punish me for some crime I unknowingly committed? I grew enraged—I flew myself towards the flight of stairs and I burst into my fathers study.

He looked up. He had been smoking his pipe when he peered toward my direction and said, “Christopher, my boy? Is that you? By the sound of it…for what cause do you fling yourself into my presence in such a manner?”

“This!” I hissed as I threw down Agatha’s portrait on his desk. “This picture of Agatha was by my bed side!” Father smiled sadly. “Beautiful, isn’t she…wasn’t she? Oh, poor Aggie! To die so suddenly and at seventeen! So young and so innocent!” He cried out loud.

“Ha! She was all but innocent!” I scoffed. “She was all but beautiful! She was a witch! Why—why I’m glad she’s dead!” I exclaimed.

“Oh, my dear boy, I understand your grief. You are nineteen. Although separated by two years, she and you were very close. It was sweet of you to bring her picture to your room as a keepsake. She will be missed greatly.”

“What!” I shrieked, furiously. “We were never close! She was no more than a thorn in my backside! An unrelenting, half twit who didn’t know how or when to leave well enough alone! Surely, father, you of all people—do you not understand my troubles? By what means do you present Agatha’s memory to me—in your eyes—a saint by default, when I, as well as you, know that was far from being so!” Father sighed then, defeated.

“Agatha was…a troubled child, Christopher,” he said to me. “You knew that best.”

“No, Agatha was ill. She was an ill child. Ill in the head,” I replied to him. “She loved me—“

“As well she should!”

“—with a flame that burned brightly and never seemed to waver,” I continued. “Could she have not seen that I was not the one for her? That she and I would never be? And yet she continued to ache for my touch, and it was a touch I could not give her—why would I touch my sister in such a way? Was I a depraved man-beast in her eyes?” I collapsed in a chair. “Father—forgive me for saying such things of dear Agatha, but in my heart these words do not ring false.” I rubbed my eyes. I was tired; so exhausted of the games. “And then for you to put her picture by my bedside..? What possessed you, dear father?”

“But Christopher, it was not I who placed that picture by your bedside.”

“That was not you?”

“On of the maids, perhaps,” he mused aloud. “Now my boy,” he said to me, “go back upstairs—are you decent?—and I shall inquire about this picture n your behalf. And I apologize, for your troubles. As Agatha’s troubles were your own, they were also mine as well. But now that she has passed, those troubles you shall suffer no longer. Why not remember Agatha with pleasantries, for all that it is worth?”

I told him I’d try, and preceded back here, where I now tell you these woes. Ugh, was father right? Was he telling the truth? Was it merely an accident, Agatha’s picture beside me while I slept?  Did one of the maids mistakenly place it on my nightstand, or is it my father at fault? And what about the other picture nights prior? If it was really a maid who placed the first portrait in here, could it have been the same maid who placed the second one as well? And if so, why place another one, knowing she had already placed on in here?

Could it have been another maid? Another maid…no. Currently, we only have one maid within our residence. Paulina and Jolene are out of the country. We only have Margaret with us. But she doesn’t work this week—we Martins do prefer to be independent for ourselves once in a while—so who..? Surely it was not I. Perhaps it was father after all. But then, why lie about it? In fact, why leave the picture here at all? He knows the troubled mind Agatha had, so why would he go through all the trouble of sneaking the picture on my nightstand?

I must ruminate on these things.

November 26th, Eleven p.m.

Father is blind. He does not know where my nightstand is. Searching for it, he’d have caused a racket.

November 27th, 1902

I did not sleep a wink last night, and I shall not sleep a wink tonight. I am most disturbed by the events that have presented themselves to me. How did Agatha’s picture come within my possession? I know no other way to go about this manner. I refuse to sleep until these woes are resolved.

November 29th, 1902

Not even twelve days of sleep could posses me to bring her memory anywhere near me! With my door locked so no one could enter in, it would be impossible for any maid to sneak in her portrait, therefore I dare ask, who is causing all this madness? Well stop, I say! Pursue no longer! I have no wish to suffer you, or your games! Go back hence—back to there which you came—and do not set me in your sights again! Do not smite me—for have I really done you such evil? Why just a moment ago, I burned what was yet another Agatha portrait found in a locked room no less!

I hadn’t slept for four days, thus this morning my eyes drew weary, so I cleansed myself to refresh myself awake. Before I went into my bathroom I had locked my bedroom door so I was not to be disturbed. When I emerged from the bathroom, there on my bed, in the very center, was a picture of my sister, smiling up at me. It was the same picture as the other two times before! Immediately, I went to the door to find it locked.

I looked around, yet I saw no one! I took up the portrait and ran down the stairs—in my robe—and into my father’s study where I took some matches. Then I ran into our backyard, flung the picture on the concrete there, and stroke it on fire; and, when there was nothing left but ashes, I hurried into my room, and ransacked it, looking for the intruder within my dwelling. I found no one! Surely—have I gone mad? Surely that isn’t so. What is going on? Whose target for what game have I become? I’ve had enough. I will seek guidance for my troubles. Surely a priest can advise me on my woes.

December 1st, 1902

I cannot be without sleep any longer. Tonight I sleep in the Advent Church.

December 3rd, 1902

I am truly frightened. My whole mind and body—soul even!—quivers in fear. The Father Wright says I am not safe here in my father’s house. He says there is a somewhat evil surrounding me—following me. At first, I didn’t want to believe, but quite truthfully, I’ve begun to believe such.

December 4th, 1902

It has been quiet today. No thing has disturbed my thoughts. How peculiar…

December 9th, 1902

Honestly—this I must say—I do not know whether to be relieved or suspicious, for I have slept quite soundly these last five days. No one—no thing—and no presence kept me from sleeping deeply. Could this be the end of all my troubles? I must see into this further.

December 20th, 1902

Ha! Fifteen days, fifteen long days, days that I dreaded simply because I knew what to expect—and nothing! Ha! Has God turned his eyes to me? Have I won my Lord’s favor? This is truly splendid! In fact, I have not felt so light since Agatha had died! My friend, oh my dear companion, I have been cured!!!

December 22nd, 1902

I thought it was over, now I am not so sure. I shall explain.

I can live in this house no longer. After everything that happened, I find that I have no desire to reside within my father’s dwelling any longer. I was packing up my room and while I was putting away my clothes I saw, on my bed, another portrait of my sister. Now, I am moving, so I did not pay as much attention to her picture as I used to. Until I noticed what picture it was.

“Impossible,” I mused aloud as I set down my clothes. I stared at the picture, shocked. I did not touch it. I refused to touch it, because I had known what I had done to that picture, and so seeing it threw me immensely; for even though it had darkened and was burnt around the edges, the picture was in tact.


“Black Dress”…by Zachary Pedersen

Marie: So I love this free write and decided to share this here. I’ve never heard of a black dress symbolizing insecurities or hurt…really nice piece by a talented author!

Copyright “Little Black Dress” by Zachary Pedersen. Marie Meyers 2018. All Rights Reserved.

State of Mind

Walking endlessly through a forest; Trudging deeper and deeper…The sky sets, stars align, and orange hues begin to fade against the shillouetes of trees…Distorting and warping my reality in a thick brush…..My feet come together, legs still at my sudden halt, forest floor spinning…Blue ruin, I’ve made myself lost with no clear way out…my Hellos and cries for help fall upon my ears alone, the sound of my labored breaths echo, and resounds loudly in the open air…I feel a menacing presence beside my own, legs aching and stretching I run deeper through the dark, catching and scratching flesh against bark and branches….Following the sound of rushing water, a river, my legs give out, my skin scrapes the forest floor, the monster getting closer, I look to the river to see myself one last time….Behind me stands my shadow…..In the darkest parts of my mind exists a euphemism. . . . . .

I scream, it echoes, curling into myself, tears disinfect tiny blind scratches in my palms….Relief or agony, I’m my own menace, but I don’t know….Nor know why…As the forest cools and night ascends, I shiver, will the sun ever return here? Feels like it’s been too many hours now. . . . . ¤ M.M.2018

condemnation // we’ll eat the seeds even

Dancing circles around the truth relentlessly,
acting ignorantly to bask in bliss — seconds that should be, but are nothing but the opposite.

(And Lilith sent a serpent to the garden, condemned Adam and his lover in jealous rage.)
Seeds of temptation, sprouting from sweet nectars,
and under the glow of street lamps, I drink you in.

Phone vibrates, as calls I miss in your presence,
and I can’t decipher what’s hidden in your eyes (despite my best efforts).
[–are you Lilith, or the Serpent in disguise?]
Dipping your fingers, sucking
the juices of my soul from between the webbs of your crevices.

Metaphors. Alliteration. Imagery.
You caress me on a cosmic level
and I find forbidden beauty in deadly sins,
and in the silence that stretches over the space between us.
Inconspicuous preference; condemnation and restitution.

I’m ready and willing,
you dangle me as if I were a grape vine, ripened;
your tongue slips from between your parted lips,
wraps around a grape, and you even eat its seed.

(What if I told you sirens were actually humans in those folklore stories?)
–and I’m curious as to what it’s like to be wrapped within the flesh and wet heat of your mouth,
bit into and swallowed;
an impatient hunger that I want sated by you.
Your tongue darts out as if to cage my soul,
and I wonder if you’ll even eat its seed.

Bated breaths in thick tension,
and the lingering aftertaste of sweet nectar when we exhale;
we pluck red grapes off a dangling vine
–[and] we’ll eat the seeds, even.

–Marie Meyers, 2017. All Rights Reserved.

Hey, everyone, it’s been awhile.

Hey, it’s Marie. Sorry I’ve been MIA lately. I’ve had a lot of hings going on, between work, and trying to finalize this paperwork for college, sorting out my manuscripts (there are so many handwritten ones), and just trying to really take good care of me. To be honest, I’m a bit in a rut still, but I’m slowly coming out of it — what’s the terminology, “Finding myself”, something like that? — but anyway.

If you’ve been a frequent reader on this blog you probably notice that the layout is a little different. After deciding to create multiple pages in an effort to organize all my writing….I’m not sure if I like it too much? To be honest, I’m thinking about indexing them all and combining them all into a website. A website! For Marie Meyers. How does that sound? Or are things good enough? I’m not sure, but I’m playing with the idea. I may just create a mock site and see how it goes.

Anyway, just wanted to update. If you haven’t already, follow my Facebook page for updates that are a little more frequent. Be on the lookout for more work — some new poetry is coming soon.

That’s all for now. With much love,

Marie xx

Please Don’t Leave Me Yet


We decided to remain just friends – looking the other way at the undeniable sexual and emotional tension between us to keep our fragile peace of mind from shattering,
the soft look I reserve just for you, you pretend not to notice, and I act as if I’m unaware that there’s a tender emotion inside you reserved just for me; just friends, because the Universe won’t let us be anything but. We met too late, there’s no time to go the pace we’d like, because Life is moving way too quickly now that we’re getting older.

Just friends, because you’re covered in so many scars, you don’t see what I see when I say you’re fine and beautiful this way; just friends, because you couldn’t pull me closer if I was anything but.

Please, don’t leave me yet — I’m speaking aloud to these sensations I only seem to feel while you’re around. Please don’t leave me yet, I’m not easily swayed by Love, because He and I have never been close friends, but you leave me absolutely breathless; I can’t remember the last time I felt this way. The closer we become to one another, the more I’m certain that I can handle the violence and volatile feelings inside you. You’re a universe that was meant to be known to me; I’m synchornizing my heart beat to yours.

Don’t leave yet — I’m speaking to the lingering sensations you feel, when it’s just the two of us in your car at 2AM, not saying a word, but the feel of my fingers in your hair and your steady breathing conveys so much between us. Is it only coincidence that there’s a bond this strong between us? I find it hard to believe. I don’t think I’m wrong: there’s a happy ending in blending me with you. The pain, fear, and lonliness you feel — if you give it to me, you’ll forget the feeling of loss, for the very first time; the universe within me is brighter and filled with more hope — I’ll let you inside and show you that color can exist within an otherwise bleak world.

Please don’t leave me yet, the sense of loss I feel at the idea of parting from you, saddens me beyond words. If we’re star crossed lovers, our souls were once in love; my body is a vessel for my soul’s re-incarnated prayers for your happiness; the hidden colors in my otherwise bleak world–that I’ve uncovered thanks to you — I too will illuminate the crevices and dark corners hidden in the deepest parts of you.

Don’t leave me yet again, to wait even more lives, alone, for you. Just like in our lives before, the closer I get to you, the more convinced I am that I can’t leave you.

So don’t leave me yet.

Copyright Marie Meyers, 2017. All Rights Reserved. Photo Credit: Zachavelli Photography

Are we fated to be faithful, or fateful?
Might not make any sense to you,
but I’ve been spending my days
about forever lately..
Forever loved or forever alone,
Forever remembered,
or forever forgotten;
if I died today,
would I miss this place,
and would anyone miss me
when I was gone?
…Would you?

I’ve been spending my nights
tossing and turning lately,
because you haven’t been beside me
to become one with me–
–I haven’t merged our souls,
moulded our bodies so perfectly
that we can’t tell where
my skin ends, or
where yours begins…

I miss tracing your shape
with my eyes and my fingers,
memories tease and torment–
–did you know
when we recall a memory
it’s a distorted representation
of what actually was?
— nothing is better
than the real thing,
and waiting
to see you again is agonizing;
time can’t go by quick enough
and yet,
I feel like it’s going too fast,

what if I die before we kiss again?
Before you tell me you love me again?
And it makes me wonder:
maybe when it comes to us
there will never be enough time,
always too little or too much;
Greedy and possesive I know,
but only when I’m in your arms
does time seem to stand still
at the right time
and in the right way.

Dangerous, really–

We can become
the embodiement of bliss,
or this could all go up in flames.
The stakes are so high
no matter what the outcome,
and either way,
we become lost to each other..

If I died right now,
how much pain would you feel?
Would your skin betray your fury,
would your heart
bleed through your skin;
would you cry for me?

Would you leave your soul
with me
for safe keeping,
and so that
I would never forget you?

Would you forget me?

I wonder all this now
in a single moment
as I think about
the chocolate of
your skin
and your almond
shaped eyes,

and the
curve of your lips–
–your deep chuckle in my ear,
as you ask me
why my mind is so far away
when your’e right beside me..

You tell me to pay attention
to the things you’re saying,
but my mind
can’t help but wander,
because I feel both so happy
right now
with you here,
and so very much afraid
of this malicious happiness.

I want to kiss you,
I turn my head to capture
your lips with my own
as you’re mid sentence–
–youre eager, and soon
our bodies speak to one another;

And it’s just as well,
because I was so lost in
my love for you,
that I can’t recall
what you were speaking on;
and now, hopefully, you can’t either . . .

©Marie Meyers, 2017. All Rights Reserved. 

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